Here I pay my respects to those who are in my life and make it better every day, to those who were and I don’t forget and to some that passed by and helped me to realise that I’m better of without them…

Every single name in here helped me, one way or another, to shape my life and helped me to be the way I am…
Ana Patricia, Alberto Pais da Silva, Maria de Fatima Capela, Rui Teixeira, Tomas, Ines, Marta Silva, Claudia Silva, Filipe Pais da Silva, Tania Viana, Nacho Soto, Kati Pinhal, Karamelo, Ana Marialva, Cristiana Correia, Catia Ramos, Pedro Gonçalves, Carina Chaves, Joanna Naharnowicz, Hugo Ferreira, Carlillos Martinez, Clelia Correia, Paulo Vieira, Jordana Correia, Rui Silverio, Raniero Bongiovanni, Luis Cadete, Javier Caxorro Herrero, Jade Fo, Sonia Hernandez Miguel,     Ana Carla Amorim, Jano Lebeau, Eurico Morais, Pedro Matos, Andre Meneses, Marta Knapek, Jan Bjorklund, Isabel Silva, Ana Rios, Rui Mota, Ricardo Batista, Juliana Ferreira, Francis Kelly, Enrique Saura Ortega, Sebastien Perzon, Maria A. Secas, Joana Sa, Carlos Seixas Ferreira, Filipe Luis Godinho, Flavie De Virieu, Diego Gallardo Fuentes, Margaux Toinet, Olivier Farnault, Daniel Viana, Rui Ramos, Fanny Pont, Bruno Hespanhol Benoit de Fouquieres, To Dias, tania Ferreira, Tania Amaral, Diana Canastro, Sofia Virgos Casal, Pedro Caseiro, Flavia Pittarello, Kasia Chmielewska, Raquel Sousa, Agnieszka Winiarska, Octavio Bragança, Urgan Karapinar, Nuno Castro, Mymy Jalito, Andrea Ferreiro Garcia, Elio Santos, Catarina Simoes, Emilie Abbache, Thiago Monteiro, Samuel Costa, Samuel Rouayrenc, Pedro castro, Hugo Pais da Silva, Patricia Urbanowicz, Dida correia, Hugo Dias, Nelson Rodrigues, Tatiana Monteiro, Pedro Salgueiro, Nuno Perdigao, Helder Couto, Anabela Ferreira, Helder Pauperio, Catia Ribeiro, Sebastiao Lopez, Angel Gil Gonzalez, Anna De Palma, Ahmet Anil, Fatima Rocha, Luciana, Rui Amorim, Sara Bensaid, Bartosz Lewandowski, Claudia carneiro, Jessica De Lange, Nelson Rodrigues.

If I forgot some names, sorry for those who I care… The names that are not here and made me some harm it’s just because they are not important anymore and I simply forgot them…

To all In here:

As the song says…
THANK YOU! YOU ALL SHAPED MY LIFE. YOU MAKE ME LOVE WHO I AM TODAY!!!

My boardwalk…

Posted: Setembro 26, 2011 in Uncategorized

I was owing you a visit…

It has been a long time since I last paid you a visit…
Sorry… You’re right… I should come here more often…

You’re the one that never lets me down… you are always there to welcome me with arms wide open, always ready to listen to my thoughts without ever questioning me…

You are the one that makes me relax… the one that eases my mind… Just you… my favorite Boardwalk…
Today we met again… Just you, me and thoughts running in peace…

How I missed the feeling of arriving home tired but with a sence of inner peace…

The funny thing is that, while running with the ipod on, I started looking at the others and one thing I’m sure…

People come to you because in here there are no problems… no disputes… no crises… no enemies… no past… no future… no one judging…
There are only individuals trying to get tired… trying to escape just for a while from their problems…
And today I ran… I ran like there was no tomorrow… I ran till I couldn’t ran anymore… and it felt good…

Just me and my boardwalk… The only place where I can think…

The thoughts that bother me didn’t go away…
But for a while I could relax…

 

Miguel Pais da Silva

These are just the thoughts of a boy…

A boy that is thinking about a girl…

Someone that came in his life without asking if she could…

Since the day they were lying down on the floor of some living room, hugging each other, after having seen each other only for the second time, he hasn’t been the same…

Any similarity with reality is just pure coincidence!

Here I am again… sitting on the balcony… This time drinking a glass of Porto wine, smoking a cigarrette and writing just because I’m listening to a song and looking at a picture…

A face is smiling behind the flowers… the same face I saw sleeping… the same eyes I saw shining… the same smile that lights a strange sparkle inside me when I see it…

And she says “this thing is getting strange…” and I say “I hate you”…

And she says “let’s just not talk about it…” and I say “You really get on my nerves”…

Games apart… I’m starting to think that I don’t hate her… ;) not at all…

And this song is making thing about that someone… (Adele – One and Only)

Why? I don’t know…  Unbelievable… I don’t know what to say… me without words… just can’t find them…

Just love the lyrics…

“You’ve been on my mind, I grow fonder every day, Lose myself in time, Just thinking of your face”

(It’s true, she has been on my mind more than I wanted and I’m growing fonder as time goes by… and yes, sometimes I lose track of time when thinking about that someone…)

“God only knows why it’s taken me so long to let my doubts go, You’re the only one that I want, I don’t know why I’m scared”

(Yes, I’m scared… I wasn’t expecting this now… I don’t know what is happening… I don’t know what to do… but she looks right and feels real…)

“I’ve been here before, Every feeling, every word, I’ve imagined it all”

(That is why I’m scared… but it’s better not to think about the past… I have all my past solved now…)

“You’ll never know if you never try, To forgive your past and simply be mine”

(Yes, I’ve solved my past but the question is… has she? …Is she also scared? will she ever try? Is she willing to? Will I be able to give the first step some day? Will I stop being scared or will I understand what I’m feeling some day? Too many questions on my mind…)

“I dare you to let me be your, your one and only, Promise I’m worth it, To hold in your arms, So come on and give me a chance, To prove I am the one who can walk that mile, Until the end starts”

(One thing I know… When I find the answers to these questions on my mind I will listen to this song with that someone… looking eye to eye and this is what I will whisper in her ear…)

“If I’ve been on your mind, You hang on every word I say, Lose yourself in time, At the mention of my name, Will I ever know how it feels to hold you close, And have you tell me whichever road I choose, you’ll go?”

If she is able to walk half a mile… I’ll meet her half way…

Miguel Pais da Silva

While you were sleeping…

Posted: Julho 28, 2011 in Uncategorized

While you were sleeping

 

 

While you were sleeping I sat and started writing! I lit a cigarette, poured a bottle of sparkling water on a glass, turned on the computer and, as I was looking at you, my fingers started typing…

 

My insomnia is back again but I’m not worried… I feel fine and I’m happy you are resting, wrapped on my blanket looking this quiet… Long day it was indeed…

 

The tv is on… just finished lowering the volume… I’m starting to feel a bit tired but not sleepy and definitely not tired of staring… sorry…  ;)

 

I could write more, believe me… a lot more… but it’s stronger  than me… I just want to turn off the computer and lay down on the couch next to you and just wait for you to wake up…

 

Take your time… rest… sleep… I can happily wait… just enjoying the view!  ;)

 

 

Miguel Pais da Silva

Escrevi em Português… ehehe

Posted: Julho 11, 2011 in Uncategorized

Eis que, por arte e obra não sei bem do quê, surge mais um post meu… Resultado de mais uma noite ao lado da minha querida companheira de longa data insónia…

 

Respondendo aos pedidos de amigos e amigas, várias famílias, outros tantos jovens estudantes, diversos sem abrigo, uma enormidade de bêbados, algumas putas e poucas… muito poucas princesas, eis que surge aqui, em primeiríssima mão, o meu primeiro post em português.

 

 

Não ambiciono o protagonismo de Paula Bobone nem tão pouco o enorme sucesso de Carolina Salgado, duas referências do panorama literário português! Quero apenas levar até vós, meus caríssimos e caríssimas (talvez, quem sabe ás mais baratinhas também…), estas palavras que nos deixam a pensar, pensativos, que quando pensamos nunca pensaríamos ser possível pensar em sequer ter estes pensamentos!

 

Fruto de uma pesquisa exaustiva (com isto refiro-me a uma quantidade absurda de noites em claro sem nada de mais interessante para fazer se não fumar cigarros enquanto navego por sites onde encontro os mais estúpidos conteúdos), reuni algumas frases, ensinamentos, ou até quem sabe, porque não, lições de vida.

Como não tenho mais nada para fazer, vou tecer uns breves comentários sobre 3 delas…

(até podia comentar mais mas como são tantas e como pretendo tentar dormir ainda hoje  vou-me ficar por estas e guardar as outras para uma próxima vez…)

 

 

1- “Seu futuro depende de seus sonhos. Então, vá dormir!”

 

Ora aqui está uma frase que me perturba.

Em primeiro lugar tenho insónias e como tal, dormir é um problema grave!

Segundo, sou daquelas pessoas que tem uma certa e determinada dificuldade em me lembrar dos meus sonhos. Sei que os tenho porque as vezes passo por aqueles momentos estúpidos quando acordamos de um sonho e por breves segundos pensamos “Fdx, este sonho estava a ser incrível… espera lá… mas estava a sonhar com quê???”… sim, aquele estúpido momento em que, em questão de segundos, nos esquecemos do sonho que estavamos a ter à instantes atrás… Sim… sou desse tipo de gente!

 

Resumindo, a ser verdade, o meu futuro está um pouco Fo**do!

 

 

2- “Sexo é que nem jogo de cartas. Se você não tiver um bom parceiro e bom ter uma boa mão.”

 

Eis uma grande verdade… Todos nós entendemos bem o que está aqui escrito…

Bem sei que masturbação é um assunto delicado para as mulheres (todas já experimentaram apenas não admitem…) mas nós homens conhecemos bem o prazer do chamado “sexo comigo próprio” (e desde tenra idade…)!

Na falta de parceira… nada como uma boa mão em alturas de aperto… e mãos até temos duas…

Como diz um amigo meu (não revelo quem por motivos de privacidade) que carinhosamente apelidou as suas mãos de Cátia Vanessa: “Quando a cátia cansa a vanessa avança…”

 

 

Eu disse 3 frases não disse???

Pois foi… mas não estou com paciência para escrever mais… Mudei de ideias…

Quero tentar dormir… sinto-me cansado e a puta da insónia não vai embora…

 

Mas vou lutar contra ela… Meus queridos, fica prometido que comentarei mais frases absurdas, disparatadas… até mesmo estúpidas numa próxima vez…

 

Beijinhos e abraços

 

 

Miguel Pais da Silva

A piece of advice… women are dangerous my fellow men…

 

There are no specific rules for being alert in order to know when a woman is screwing with your mind, when you are falling for them…

There are no specific rules how to behave as a gentleman, only some guidelines everyone of us should follow… We all know all men are different and all women also…

 

I found on the internet some so called “Rules of a Gentleman” and some so called “Rules of a lady“… The article caught my attention, and I gave it a quick glance…

There were lots of rules or, as I prefer to call them, guidelines and some of them were obvious, others were not always applicable (just because, as I said before, every men and women are different and like different things) but some got me thinking… a lot…

 

The only conclusion I reached was: My Fellow men, WE ARE FUCKED… most of the times!!!

 

Don’t be scared, I can explain… It’s not that scary…

 

I’ll focus my theory only on the 6 rules I gave more thought about, 3 from the so called “Rules of a gentleman” and 3 from the “Rules of a lady”.

 

If you are just looking for a good fuck forget what I’m going to say because you will not think about these things (you will be thinking with your other head) and you won’t be paying attention to these signs… But if this is not your main goal pay serious attention to what I’m about tol say and you will agree with me…

 

Let’s see what I’m talking about:

 

“RULES OF A LADY”

 

- “Being inteligent is sexy, don’t play stupid.”   :   I speak for myself but, I think that for all of us too… Men are tired of stupid women! If a women is stupid no one will take her seriously. No men wants to have a stupid women next to him…      If it’s just for sex, men don’t care… but we are tired of women that can only talk about shopping, shoes, make up or the last episode of gossip girl…

When a woman is smart and inteligent is halfway to capture our attention… If they know about this and if they learn how to use it we are doomed… one step closer to think about her most of the time… (you are fucked…)

 

The next thing that can fuck us is if they learn how to use their smile…

 

- “Your smile is the sexiest curve on your entire body.”   :   The smile is the other thing we can leave us helpless… No men can resist a beautiful and natural smile… A women’s smile used wisely can make us leave our guard down unexpectedly…

When you notice, you just can’t stop thinking about that same smile she gave you… (You are fucked…)

 

The last one of these three is the most important… Guys, If they learn how to use this in their favor… YOU ARE REALLY FUCKED…

 

- “Flirt with him enough to show your interest. But tease him enough to make him chase you.

That is the most dangerous thing of all… We all like to flirt and be flirted with… We all like to tease and be teased…

 

The problem is when they know how to do this perfectly…

We all like to feel wanted, we all like when a woman flirts with us… we all like be teased… it boosts our egos… it makes us feel wanted… We just love to flirt and tease…

But this is a dangerous game… and women play it better than men… while you’re playing the game, they are setting us a trap… and when we least expect we are the ones chansing them… That’s when they got you by the balls… (Oh boy you are so fucked…)

 

“RULES OF A GENTLEMAN”

 

These rules are a “must do” but be careful… Use them wisely, or else when you realise you are not using them with conscience, you are falling for them and they are just things you do naturally just because they got inside you… (and once more, you are fucked…)

 

- “Look her in the eyes”   :   In fact we all know we should look a woman in the eyes… It shows confidence, interest, it shows we are paying attention on what they are saying insted of her body…

The problem is that some women have a look that is able to capture you… and there is no way to run away from it…      When you realise you are looking into her eyes and she is not even talking or looking at you, that is when you should realise one important thing… you are fucked…

 

- “Let her rest her head on your shoulder”   :   As true gentlemen, all men like to do this… It shows we are respectful and sensitive… But it is dangerous… You start feeling them closer, their perfume is starting to smell nicer, you start holding her… shit… that is when you are fucked…

 

Last but not the least… very similar to the last one but even more dangerous because they don’t realise we are fucked but we do…

 

- “Let her fall asleep in your arms”   :   When you let her fall asleep in your arms they think you are amazingly nice, they even start to like you even more…

 

The problem is when the are already asleep… When even though they are already asleep and whatever you do they will not notice, you start looking at them sleeping, you start holding them even stronger, snuggling, touching their hair, smiling with no reason… when you realise you are doing all of this and they are not noticing a thing, and even so you smile… My friends… You are seriouly fucked…

 

I’m just writing these thoughts because I think we should all thing about the power women can have over us men…        We are so easy… so fucking easy… fortunately they haven’t figure us out yet…

 

All of these things I talked about are the most pure truth… Which one of us haven’t felt some of these things over the last few days? I did and I’m starting to get worried… That is why I’m warning you all…

If you didn’t… you will… Believe me… all of us fall for the same things…

But let’s face it… in these matters we are stupid… being aware does not make us avoid the fact that if it happens we will fall for them…

And you know what… WE ARE FUCKED!!!

 

Miguel Pais da Silva

Insomnia

Posted: Junho 29, 2011 in Uncategorized

 

 

 

Can’t sleep…

Every day the same feeling…

Sitting at the balcony, having my laptop playing the same playlist over and over again and my drink and cigarrete keeping me company!

Am I afraid of having nightmares…?

Am I afraid of dreaming…?

Life saves us some tricky dilemmas…

Lately, I have been thinking about the paths I’ve been choosing, about the choices I’ve made, about those that I haven’t… and you know what…

I used to feel guilty about some… used to regret others… and feel happy about a few…

Today I can say I’m not thinking about those things…

“He who forgets will be destined to remember”… and I do… I remember my past with a smile on my face now…

All choices that I made… all paths that I have chosen… all the rights… all the wrongs… just made me as I am…

Some made me laugh… some made me cry… some made me stronger… all made me learn… all together made as I am and the only thing we can do with our past is learn!

Today I don’t feel the weight of the past on my back… even though, sometimes I’m still afraid of flying… but that’s just me…

I’m letting myself go with the flow…

smiling today… blinking my eye to the future ahead…

Things Happen for a reason… people appear in our path for a reason… I stopped thinking about those reasons… I’ll just go where they will take me…

Sometimes sleeping as an angel… or like most of the times, with my insomnias…

Life is smiling so I’ll just enjoy it…

 

Miguel Pais da Silva